course prefs. not so easy

i am indecisive fullstop

or perhaps this was what i should have been thinking of doing all along. this whole year i've been telling everyone, including myself, that i want to do pharm. sci/ engineering at monash... but to think about it now that course has heaps of chem in it and not as much bio, and i did better in bio in my vce... the career possibilities are very broad though, but at the moment i still only have a vague idea. so like three days before course prefs. are due i suddenly decide, hey i'm gonna do dental science now...gee sounds really random ..but then the more i think about dentistry, the less i think its boring, in fact it has a lot to do with bio and in the end its not really a job where you do the same thing everyday..cos different people would have different teeth problems..and well this sounds really silly but teeth are pretty important...apparently they're the easiest part of you to decay while you're alive - okay that sounds really weird - but you need them everyday, we all eat food don't we? ...

nevertheless, i'm not even sure if i can get into the course cos part of the selection process is umat and performance in pre reqs which i didn't do that great in methods and chem so yeah... now i think if i don't get in i might feel a bit disappointed ... *sigh* ...and i have to wait till mid january to know so that's like another 3 weeks!

but then again, i wouldn't really mind that much doing engineering/pharm. sci cos its sciencey and i quite enjoy science...oh well! i can't do anything about that now, so i'll just give dental science a try and if not i'll just do engineering/ pharm sci...i think this is probably the latest time that i've ever blogged at...but i feel much better after pouring out all my thoughts =)

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first time that i've blogged since exams finished and everything. now that yr 12 is officially and entirely over i feel more than anything - relief. apparently uni isn't as stressful..or so some say. but uni? ...uni? eugh...lol i don't think i'm ready for it yet..i don't want to grow up!! it's another step into the real world and i'm scared. i admit it, i'm a scaredy cat..i'm like scared about everything from the dark, to ghost movies...lol even talking to ppl sometimes. i'm not very brave. but i wish i was. and i wish i didn't have to grow up ...haha i wanna be like peter pan and never grow up lol i don't even really know the story...

is there a way to increase my EQ? because if there is i wanna know, cos i think my EQ is very low. is there some way to improve social skills ? lol i need that too. sometimes i really wish i had a different personality, someone more talkative, less shy, more courageous...i wish i knew what to say at the right time...

this is really random but i just wanted to say that i finally baked choc chip cookies! (like 2 weeks ago) lol that had been on my to do list since the start of the year...and the cookies didn't turn out too bad i guess, a bit too much butter though but otherwise i'm happy ^^

look o.O -->
(okay, the tips of some of the choc chips are a tad bit burnt -.- ...but it tastes ok anyway! ......i hope! )

i think i really need to learn more cooking on the hols or i'd be eating 2 minute noodles everyday when i grow up [which unlike most ppl, i dun really like eating] i guess i just have to accept the fact that i do actually have to grow up ... maybe one day... but not now

now i feel like being lazy, not studying for my l's, not cleaning up my room, not doing anything at all and just typing random stupid incomprehensible stuff (i.e. this!)

lol i can't believe i've written so much, i can talk a lot when i want to i guess...haha i seem to say 'i guess' a lot...i guess (there it is again!)it's cos i'm not so sure about anything, because everything seems kinda flimsy, anything can change, and nothing really stays the same...

2 down 5 more to go

yay! finally both my orals are over and done with, no more detailed studies and memorising introductions...hooray! hmm...except now five writtens...english in 4 days, actually 3 and a half. omg. but everything will be over soon, then i can enjoy the holidays!! >.<

: see

It's not what you look at that matters, it's what you see.
- Henry David Thoreau

see the hope
see the dream
see the happiness that lies within but shines outwards


...there is no such thing as impossibility,
to have the thought, the belief, is possibility in itself...

i don't know

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life. ~ Albert Camus

i'm too lazy to search, too tired to look, does that count too?

time

can't believe i haven't been blogging for more than two whole months! feels a bit weird to write on a blog right now.

anyhows, what can i say? there so many things that have happened, that are going to happen, that are happening, i simply cannot put it into words. year 12 seems to go by faster than any other year of my life. there's no pause button to year 12, no way of slowing things down so its easier to swallow, and now with term 3 coming to an end (so soon?!) sacs are piling on top of each other...and me? i'm drowning amongst the sea of sacs, orals and practice exams...eek and i can't really swim either...ok maybe i'm exaggerating just a tad bit...

time does not wait.

winter holidays : week one

it's been freezing the past couple of days, and raining too.

guess what? i made jelly on monday with my cousin, nat. yay! it was the first time i ever made aeroplane jelly (usually it's my mum who makes it). talking about food, today i was researching stuff for my unit 4 folio and i found all these cool pics of cakes...mmm

here's a pretty one (courtesy of vanillepatisserie.com):



yum ... caramel and chocolate mousse cakes =P

hope everyone's enjoying the hols :)