unsaid

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the words seem to batter against the edge of my mind. like caged birds - silenced by their barricade with the outside world - and attempting with all their might to set themselves free.

and none of it is making sense, because it's illogical, illogical to know that there is a way out yet still fall into this relentless cycle.

tremble. shudder. as if there is something i want to say, something i need to say. maybe i just need to yell it all out. stand on a deserted mountain peak, with the wind cold against my face, and scream it all out, just let it all out. then let the rain wash it all away, and the sun soak it up with its warm rays.

it's irksome, the countless unresolved question marks.

still the songless silent birds search for the locked door, for an exit point for the words unsaid.


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a letter to my beloved enemy

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dearest procrastination,


sometimes it frightens me a little how time can slip away unknowingly. i really was planning to get a good two or so hours of much delayed studying to be accomplished -_____-"

please don't tempt me any longer. please don't try to lure me into reading interesting articles or doing any more random quizzes on the net or eating food unnecessarily.

.....pretty please?


yours sincerely,

the part of my brain that is still functioning

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....yes...i really should get a move on those biochem notes or something equally productive so that i actually have spare time to bake those choc chip cookies for my bro's school fair....yay COOKIES!!...that shall be my motivation :D

awaken

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the last leaf falters
breaks
is swept away by the wind

the bare tree frozen
remains
waits helplessly for winter to pass

and i had forgotten

lost

back in the flurry of events

forgot that sometimes

only when you let it break away

then can the heart remain alive

and what was lost will be more than regained

the spring sun emanates
light
awakening the first new leaf

now i remember

why

i am still here

hear

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the music beckons you to dance

to let go

forget

this time a different melody wafted from the piano, like the nostalgic aroma of homemade apple pie. yet there was something new, a familiar unplayed tune. the faint notes grew more crisp and powerful, emanating an awakening richness.

a song of realisation...

memory and forgetfulness

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and the tired string snaps
only half a kite
wandering aimlessly in the sky

it's funny how memory seems to play tricks all the time; concealing what you want to find, and digging out what you want faded.

if only magic existed. and there were a spell for forgetfulness. then i could wave my wand and make it all vanish. but is ignorance bliss?

re.collect re.fresh re.start

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i thought it was time to sit down in peace and write a decent heartfelt post. and how timely, new year's eve.

two thousand and eight. 2 0 0 8 ? the numbers seem surprisingly mismatched yet so familiar to me. it has been a long and short year. a year of change, as with all other years. 366 days have gone by just like that. i feel that i've wasted most of it, that i should have used time more wisely, more intelligently. so much has changed, so much has happened that i cannot recall when it began. it's been one challenging year, mentally & emotionally gruelling? i don't know if that's the correct adjective...

i have learnt a lot this year, and there is so much, so much more that there is to learn. 2008, a year of realisation, discovery and unexpected obstacles. and uni. first year has been interesting, something that needs adjusting to; new faces, new environment, new things to learn. and now, summer hols, one month through and two more to drift through. and work, work has been relatively good, i like the feeling of doing something productive.

to put down all my thoughts now would be impossible, because too many things are running through my mind. and my eyes keep betraying me, i just want to close them and go to sleep. but i feel compelled to continue typing...

i hope that next year will bring some sort of new beginning, like how the old saying goes, to turn a new leaf. there are so many things i am hoping for, i feel a bit greedy. and i seem to always make wishes that are impossible to grant...

no matter what, 2009, i will welcome you with open arms and a smile from the heart :]

a new year, a fresh start.

nobody knows

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treasured deep behind an icy mist
in a distant world of its own
far away from all known

a wilderness white where light reflects
locked within invisible bars
still they lie, the unhealing scars

fury ruptures and twists with pain
tears well and balloon
yet silence plays the only tune

numbing coldness, frozen stone
when will it melt and wash away?
perhaps the ice will forever stay

unseen, undiscovered, unmapped
a hidden land where nobody goes
a secret nobody knows


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