abracadabra

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hocus pocus focus,

anyone got a magic wand i can borrow?

lol, i think i've pretty much metabolised even my reserve stores of motivation. oh dear, and i've still got a little over two weeks to go till the summer hols finally come. help!!! argh.

need to F O C U S >___<

...and exercise more self control...


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chasing the butterfly

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there's something unspokenly beautiful about nature,

even on rainy days

i was walking home from the bus stop the other day, it was getting dark and pouring like mad. my icicle temperature hands were clinging tightly onto my umbrella in the windy rain. as i trudged towards home, i was feeling outright exhausted after a long day of uni, and was silently cursing the sky for ending my day with a downpour.


then i noticed the trees in my street. they were leafless, but full of little white blossoms, like snow caught in mid air and strung together in a gracefully complex way. despite the howling wind that brought the branches trembling, there was something cheerful and optimistic about the wintry trees. just standing there, in a content yet nonchalant way.


and it made me think, and come to realise, how barricading the unpleasant things by doing other seemingly happier things is only a temporary band-aid. attempting to chase after happiness is futile. perhaps it'd be better, like the white blossom tree, to face the ever-changing weather...simply just as it is.

"Happiness is like a butterfly: the more you chase it, the more it will elude you, but if you turn your attention to other things, it will come and sit softly on your shoulder"

[Henry David Thoreau]

cute creativity

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some cute handmade items that caught my eye while i was window shopping on the net:

...a scrumptious looking chocolate parfait necklace

....super adorable panda buttons

....a quirky little 'life with tea' handpainted wooden brooch

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la di da di da .....

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if only

the sunshine would come out to play

one of those faintly purposeful days, just been eating food, feeding my growing addiction to playfish games, weeding the garden, and doing other random things that don't really go together. i'm feeling fidgety. and it's agitating.

i dunno, but sometimes i feel like i need to go off on a holiday, or just do something drastically different and run away for a moment or two. it's odd, that mixed emotional state of being tired and energised at the same time.

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something new

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it's been a long while since i've sat down to just pour out a few - out of the much too many - thoughts that are swimming around in my mind.

despite my appetite dampening recently, my love for food was still strong enough to lure me into trying out some new recipes today. one that was a major flop, and one that still needs further experimentation.

i went to the health food aisle of coles today to buy some tahini (which is basically sesame seed paste). it's really nutritious, especially the unhulled variety. when i got home, i opened the jar and scooped out a spoonful, expecting a flavoursome burst. but, eeeuuughhh. my first impression - this tastes like bitter chinese herbal medicine. i think the taste was just too strong for me. ohhh dear...and i now i have a 385g jar of it sitting at home...how on earth am i ever gonna finish it? hopefully i find a good recipe to accompany it...soon.

by the afternoon, another crazy idea was tickling me. actually i had heard about it from my cousin, and the thought of a 5-minute-microwave-chocolate-cake had been revolving around in my mind for a couple of days...to the point where i could no longer resist it. it's quite simple and takes under 10 minutes from prep to plating. the cake didn't turn out too bad, albeit a bit dry (probably because i had halved the oil). the highlight of it all was just watching the cake insanely rising from the mug in the microwave. it was quite an incredible sight. i'll definitely try this one again, lol, just for the thrill of watching the cake rise :)

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nothing-in-particular

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its just one of those days when there's a whole pile of things waiting to be done and instead you just feel like sleeping in, taking the entire day off and just munching your way through the pantry. just one of those nothing-in-particular days.

and then when it has almost come to an end you find yourself staring at the blank face in the mirror, wondering why a perfectly good day has just gone done down the drain - irreversible, unretrievable.

so you promise yourself, not to let this happen again.

tomorrow will be a better day.

after all, a cold and rainy day can be just as enjoyable as a bright sunny day...it just all depends on how you choose to live it.


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unsaid

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the words seem to batter against the edge of my mind. like caged birds - silenced by their barricade with the outside world - and attempting with all their might to set themselves free.

and none of it is making sense, because it's illogical, illogical to know that there is a way out yet still fall into this relentless cycle.

tremble. shudder. as if there is something i want to say, something i need to say. maybe i just need to yell it all out. stand on a deserted mountain peak, with the wind cold against my face, and scream it all out, just let it all out. then let the rain wash it all away, and the sun soak it up with its warm rays.

it's irksome, the countless unresolved question marks.

still the songless silent birds search for the locked door, for an exit point for the words unsaid.


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a letter to my beloved enemy

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dearest procrastination,


sometimes it frightens me a little how time can slip away unknowingly. i really was planning to get a good two or so hours of much delayed studying to be accomplished -_____-"

please don't tempt me any longer. please don't try to lure me into reading interesting articles or doing any more random quizzes on the net or eating food unnecessarily.

.....pretty please?


yours sincerely,

the part of my brain that is still functioning

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....yes...i really should get a move on those biochem notes or something equally productive so that i actually have spare time to bake those choc chip cookies for my bro's school fair....yay COOKIES!!...that shall be my motivation :D

awaken

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the last leaf falters
breaks
is swept away by the wind

the bare tree frozen
remains
waits helplessly for winter to pass

and i had forgotten

lost

back in the flurry of events

forgot that sometimes

only when you let it break away

then can the heart remain alive

and what was lost will be more than regained

the spring sun emanates
light
awakening the first new leaf

now i remember

why

i am still here

hear

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the music beckons you to dance

to let go

forget

this time a different melody wafted from the piano, like the nostalgic aroma of homemade apple pie. yet there was something new, a familiar unplayed tune. the faint notes grew more crisp and powerful, emanating an awakening richness.

a song of realisation...

memory and forgetfulness

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and the tired string snaps
only half a kite
wandering aimlessly in the sky

it's funny how memory seems to play tricks all the time; concealing what you want to find, and digging out what you want faded.

if only magic existed. and there were a spell for forgetfulness. then i could wave my wand and make it all vanish. but is ignorance bliss?