^^ happy feet

i took my lil bro to see happy feet on thursday...it was so cute, and definitely no disappointments, very meaningful too...a must see for everyone! =P

>>希望

我的希望
是包在糖果纸里的糖果
甜甜的
我的希望
像太阳公公一样
热热的
我的希望
像棉花一样
软软的
我的希望
像百合花一样
香香的
我的希望
像彩虹一样
有七种颜色

我的希望
甜甜的 热热的 软软的 香香的
还有七种颜色喔
我知道
我的希望
不会变酸 变冷 变硬 变臭
也不会没有颜色
因为
这个世界有希望存在着
~李依庭

我的希望像天空那么蓝,那么大,那么宽阔...

reason

the heart has reasons which the reason cannot understand

-Blaise Pascal

je m'en fiche

*punches the wall with a fist* (oops that made a really big dent in the wall) ok, now i feel much better...only joking, as if i would ever do that...

right now i could tear apart door, eat three blocks of dark chocolate and break all the plates in my house...i could, but i won't...not right now anyway.

aren't peace and freedom two words that go together hand in hand? but if you actually think again...if you have one, you can't have the other, now isn't that odd? well i guess it could happen if everyone in the world was a good person (although it might be quite hard to actually define what a 'good' person is...), but obviously that is not the case in the world the we live in. because say if everyone got to have their freedom, then that would mean that terrorists would be able to have freedom too, and robbers, and toddlers throwing tantrum in the supermarket, bugging their parents to buy some lollipop or something like that...well wouldn't the world be chaotic...and that definitely isn't peaceful, is it? and again, if there is to be peace not everyone can have their freedom, can they? ...so i have officially come to the very-much-thought-throughly-about conclusion that peace and freedom cannot coexist in our current world today.

but to choose between peace and freedom...that is hard...i think i would rather sacrifice my freedom for peace though...

i want to run away, run away from my own thoughts , but how is that possible, they say, you can run away from everyone,anyone, except for yourself...

i don't want to listen, i don't want to hear it, it isn't that it's all useless to me, but it's that it's partially too sharp, like a knife, and human beings aren't strong enough to withstand such things, especially the heart, i mean we're not like blocks of steel or something...because you know what? i've given up retaliating, even smiling when i feel the complete opposite, perhaps no reaction is a good reaction... i want peace. not tomorrow, but right now.

it's so easy to let something out, but much much harder to take it back.

and i shall end my ramblings with a quote, a string of words to thank you with, for taking the time to read my blog today, and perhaps something for you to ponder about:

"As we aquire more knowledge, things do not become more comprehensible, but more mysterious." - Albert Schweitzer

en francais s'il vous plait

(tout d'abord, si j'ai fait des erreurs dites-moi s'il vous plait, j'espere que je peux ameliorer mon francais!)

hier, je suis allee a la plage avec mes amis. nous nous sommes amuses bien! :P nous sommes alles au safeway pour acheter la nourriture. puis, nous avons fait au barbecue a cote de la plage. ensuite, nous avons fait une promenade a la plage et nous avons plonge notre pieds dans la mer quoique il fit froid. apres avoir nous assis a la plage pour quelque temps, nous avons pris le train a parkdale et nous avons joue au tennis. c'etait formidable bien que je soit mauvaise au tennis! au fond, c'etait chouette! ^^

one word

happy. sad. angry. anxious. frustrated. disappointed. lonely. hopeful... this is merely a chain of emotions, mixed feelings, like a chain of mismatched beads on a necklace, yet beads all the same. one simple word can mean a lot, yet perhaps to some so less at the same time.

one word can be powerful.

sometimes just one word is enough. but choosing one is difficult. too little or too much...

friendship. love. freedom. peace. sorry. each of these words could carry so much meaning. put in so many different contexts, and mean something totally different yet the same in each. because a dictionary meaning is not enough, that is merely one segment of an infinite line.

one word.

think.

monday: i'm already dreading it

omg just got reminded today that the vce results come out on monday. arghh... i don't want any of my results back coz they'll prob end up spoiling the rest of my holidays. i don't really mind that much about what i get for bio, but methods...eeeek, i think i might have made a mess of it...just writing about it makes me feel sick.

ok...happy thoughts,happy thoughts...um christmas is coming in another 16 days, my mum's gonna cook some yummy food tonight and i dug out a rather interesting vocab book for 25 different languages in the garage today...

can ignoring a problem fix it? i don't think so...

to lie or not to lie?

we had dinner with my uncle, aunt, wend and nat yesterday at sofia's. halfway through the dinner, i turned around to make sure my jacket was still on the chair...only to realise a very obvious splat of orange pasta sauce on it (my jacket just so happened to be a white one!) :(

hmm..i wonder who did it? suspect. no. 1 my lil bro who was sitting in the seat next to me. so i asked him as kindly as possible, "leigh did you do that?" hehe and guess what his reply was..." it wasn't me, i didn't do it ...i'm sorry sand!" lol...well no need to tell you who the culprit was...

at first he wouldn't admit it, but by the end of the dinner he did tell me that he did it...i guess he's an honest little boy after all...hehe he did get quiet scared that i would be angry at him, but how could i be angry when he did tell me the truth?

sometimes

life is not always a perfect and clear pathway, sometimes things don't go as expected, sometimes people can say things that can really cut deep, whether they mean it or not, sometimes things change...

sometimes it feels like looking for something that cannot be found, sometimes it seems like reaching for the sky with bare hands, sometimes it's like trying to row a boat without any oars...

sometimes it is necessary to compromise, sacrifice, let go. though it may seem like merely a couple of words, a chain of letters, pictures made with lines, intangible language ... it isn't an easy thing to do...

perspective. one step back can lead to many steps forward. look from a different point of view. think creatively, outside the confinements....and what may have seemed unachievable, unreachable, impossible isn't anymore.

although life can be hard, never give up hope...and don't forget to smile, not just for the camera nor because smiling requires less muscles than frowning ...but because of all those happy things that do happen in life every now and then...

:D

watch for the happiness

just finished watching this chinese series called 'watch for the happiness' last night. the story is meaningful and quite moving at times...like i mean to the point that it actually made me cry...

it's about an 80 yr old grandma who, after her husband dies, suffers from dementia..i'm not exactly sure of the english word for the disorder since it was in mandarin...anyways, she had a very unfortunate and sad childhood and adulthood and she gets these sudden bouts of reverting back to her past life where they were so poor she had to sell off one of daughters just to get money for some food, when she is brought to the past she forgets what everything around her really is and who people really are, suffering in her miserable memories that have become her world...she has 2 sons and a daughter but they each already have problems in their own lives that they need to solve...let alone trying to care for her...

ok...i won't say too much... hehe just in case one day you ever happen to watch it i dun wanna spoil it for you

'watch for the happiness' is actually made from a novel...which hopefully one day i may come across and get to read, although i might have a bit of trouble since it is written in chinese. but i have to say this story is very inspiring, with many meaningful lessons to teach and even though it's quite sad at times it is still full of happiness, love and hope

bad luck or good luck?

...or maybe it doesn't have anything to do with luck at all. i mean there probably isn't such thing as 'luck' but that's just merely a word used to explain the unexplainable coincidences of good things...

last saturday, as in, the saturday that just passed, i had gone to the library in search of those book thingys that you need to read before you take the test for getting your L's. hehe...i didn't even know what the book is called... but eventually after searching the library catalogue a dozen times i managed to find the book. and while i was on my way i went past the 'bestsellers' rack which just so happened to have lian hearn's "the harsh cry of the heron" which i really want to read. but the thing is, i didn't even have my library card, well actually...i don't have one, i usually just use my mum's but my mum was at chinese school with my bro...so i thought well maybe i could get a library card, i mean, it should be that hard, right?

so i got to the "sign up for a library card" counter and had a look at the form and right at the bottom of the page it had a lil section for parents/guardians to sign for ppl under 18...well duh i'm not 18 yet....doh! ...in the end i replaced the books and left... very much disappointed...

today, i decided to go to the library again, making sure i had mum's library card (i really should get one for myself sometime) ...yet to my disappointment (again!!) ...both of the books had gone!! arghh!!! ...but right where i had found lian hearn's book last time, was a different book --> empress orchid ...ok after reading the blurb (which wasn't really much help because most of it was flowery adjectives describing the book in general) ... i decided to borrow the book anyway...

i've just finished reading the first few pages and the book doesn't seem too bad...

so..um is that good luck or bad luck ?

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does thinking too much kill one? or is it too less? anger kills. frustration too. but sadness? that drowns. happiness...well i guess one can never have too much of that, n'est-ce pas? :) :) :)

everything requires balance, and balance requires everything.

what can i say??

sometimes there's just so much that you want to let out but when you come to actually letting it out there seems like nothing's left. nil. zilch. rien.

so here i am thinking, contemplating... maybe i'll just blog for the sake of practicising my french and chinese, french one day, chinese the next, then french again...hehe that sounds so ordered. too ordered. sometimes things are more interesting when you're not anticipating, when it comes out of the blue ...randomness.

...now i'm talking in bits, like pieces of a puzzle that don't exactly fit together, like a book missing pages here and there, like a pen with blotchy ink. fluency, fluidity...that's what i like.