je m'en fiche

*punches the wall with a fist* (oops that made a really big dent in the wall) ok, now i feel much better...only joking, as if i would ever do that...

right now i could tear apart door, eat three blocks of dark chocolate and break all the plates in my house...i could, but i won't...not right now anyway.

aren't peace and freedom two words that go together hand in hand? but if you actually think again...if you have one, you can't have the other, now isn't that odd? well i guess it could happen if everyone in the world was a good person (although it might be quite hard to actually define what a 'good' person is...), but obviously that is not the case in the world the we live in. because say if everyone got to have their freedom, then that would mean that terrorists would be able to have freedom too, and robbers, and toddlers throwing tantrum in the supermarket, bugging their parents to buy some lollipop or something like that...well wouldn't the world be chaotic...and that definitely isn't peaceful, is it? and again, if there is to be peace not everyone can have their freedom, can they? ...so i have officially come to the very-much-thought-throughly-about conclusion that peace and freedom cannot coexist in our current world today.

but to choose between peace and freedom...that is hard...i think i would rather sacrifice my freedom for peace though...

i want to run away, run away from my own thoughts , but how is that possible, they say, you can run away from everyone,anyone, except for yourself...

i don't want to listen, i don't want to hear it, it isn't that it's all useless to me, but it's that it's partially too sharp, like a knife, and human beings aren't strong enough to withstand such things, especially the heart, i mean we're not like blocks of steel or something...because you know what? i've given up retaliating, even smiling when i feel the complete opposite, perhaps no reaction is a good reaction... i want peace. not tomorrow, but right now.

it's so easy to let something out, but much much harder to take it back.

and i shall end my ramblings with a quote, a string of words to thank you with, for taking the time to read my blog today, and perhaps something for you to ponder about:

"As we aquire more knowledge, things do not become more comprehensible, but more mysterious." - Albert Schweitzer