Saturday, August 30, 2008

s l o w

i'm such a slowpoke. i have hardly accomplished anything today and i'm sure there's gotta be some better way to study for anatomy than what i'm doing right now. there's nearly only half of the weekend left and i really doubt i'm gonna make much progress tomorrow despite my supposed motivation. and this isn't the only thing i'm slow at...

i feel that i'm kinda slow at growing and coming into terms with things, a slow-adjuster. i don't mean growing as in growing tall (that kinda stopped quite a while ago). growing up seems too big a task for me, i don't like facing the harsh reality of the real world out there... sometimes i feel like i'm living in my own little sphere, unable to blend into the normalities others take for granted. an anomaly. a turtle hidden inside its shell, afraid to get hurt, afraid to be scarred again.

i should seriously get back to studying or at least i should first of all figure out how i'm gonna organise those anatomy terms and principles.

start afresh, from square one, the long way, because it might be worth it in the end...

2 comments:

Midnite said...

Hi Sand!

I feel the same as you. I find it hard to get started on work, especially when there's no one pushing you but yourself.

Happy Birthday btw! :D

greyshimmer said...

hi sand and midnite, i too hav 2 agree with feeling slow, and i get reminded of it everyday.
motivation is really interestin... its good that you have it tho! sometimes i wonder what really motivates me lol.
cya